Sunday, September 30, 2007

one more time....

"If I have to watch a rerun of The Today Show one more time, I will stab you."
-Mikey

Bruce, Melissa, KappaSig, Marathons and more

Do you think it means something when you have no problem waking up at 7am to mentally prepare yourself to watch Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band perform live on The Today Show, but struggle when you have to get up for a class at 1:35pm? Hansen repeatedly tells me that there is something wrong with me. And not Chris Hansen from To Catch A Predator, my roommate. I don't think there is anything wrong necessarily, I just have a completely natural, healthy obsession with a 58 year old man from Jersey. And in the effort of full disclosure I also have this strange fascination with a 46 year old lesbian. The roommates asked who had DVR'd Regis and Kelly and I had to admit it was me, because ME had performed. What? They just speak to me okay!

In non music news, Kappa Sigma just wrapped up another strong rush week. It's weird to think that this was my last Fall rush as an undergraduate, weird and yet somehow liberating. Last night Kappa Sigma sponsored our 5th Annual Comedy Night with Colin Quinn and Stephen Lynch, who both had me laughing my ass off. Check them out if you haven't seen them.

I applied to run the Marathon for the Children's Hospital and will know the end of this week if I get a number. Been running pretty consistently, but this week got me a little messed up because of rush and some projects I had going on. Back on track tomorrow.

Start working at CPK again sometime this week. Free food is always good, and a paycheck again.

I guess I don't really have more right now, but I'm going to try and update more this week than I have been.

Thanks for the music.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

I'm Back in Boston

Well its September 11th and I'm back in Boston and senior year is well underway. This morning I finally completed my schedule for the semester. Shouldn't be too challenging, and hopefully I will be able to bring my GPA back up to where it belongs after the semester in Sydney.

It's great to be back in Boston. I jumped right back into campus life, teaching a leadership class and already travelling for Kappa Sigma. This past weekend we went up to Burlington, VT to install the guys of Alpha Lambda. It all brought back memories of my own pledging and initiation. Getting geared up for rush and am currently working on planning a charity fundraiser for sometime in March so keep an eye out for that.

I'm in the works for getting a radio show for the semester. It's always something I wanted to do for a while, but I never really had the time. Not that I really have a whole lot of extra time, but I'm pumped to put a show together.

Right now I'm at work jamming to the new Kanye album which Becca bought this AM. So far so good just got to Stronger. I want to check out 50's album too maybe tonight after I get home.

How about those VMA's? They were a little disjointed for my liking, personal I would prefer full length performances. What was up with Adam Levine performing with the house band and not the boys of the band? Wake Up Call is killing it right now and someone else said it and I must agree, "I don't really get the video, but its HOT."

I'm just going to avoid the whole Britney fiasco, because she's been shit on enough over the whole thing. The POP bubble has been burst. Take your money and run.

If you are at Northeastern stop by the Kappa Sigma table across from the food court and support fallen heroes. $2 gets you a wristband. Good Cause, Good People.

Laters.

9/11/01 Always Remember. Never Forget.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Jetlag Sucks

So it's 7am on Tuesday July 3rd and I am wide awake. This probably because I was wide awake from 8am July 1st until 7pm July 2nd before I finally crashed and burned and slept for 12 hours last night. I'm back here now in good ol' Albany, NY. It's definitely a weird feeling. It's like I left yesterday except that yesterday there was 18" of snow and today its 75degrees and sunny.

It's seems all I've been doing since I've been home is eat. It's not even that I'm all that hungry, it's just that I see something that I haven't eaten in 18 weeks and I have to have it. On the drive back from the airport, we stopped at a rest stop on the Pike and even though I had two meals on the first flight and a big burrito in San Francisco's airport I had a bagel with cream cheese and a coffee at Dunkin Donuts. Then we stopped at the deli to get laundry detergent and I had two dill pickles, a bag of Cape Cod Robust Russett Potatoe Chips, and a Diet Stewarts Root Beer. I didn't sleep very well the first night. Ended up staying up until 5:30ish then napping for about 2 hours. I got up and had a Brueggers Bagel with olive pimento cream cheese. Then I went over to my Grandparents and had a bowl of cheerios. Then down to the deli for lunch and I had a nice tossed salad, another dill pickle, another bag of Cape Cod chips, an italian mix sub. You get the idea. I guess you don't even realize you miss so much until you are reminded of it.

It's still chaotic here to the point that it really hasn't hit me yet what exactly I left behind in Australia. I've been so busy with everything here running around already that I haven't really thought about it until now that I can't just walk down the hall and wake up my best friends and be like 'he you want to play some clue'. Sure I could walk next door and wake up my 5 year old cousin and play some memory or something, but it just won't be the same. What was in Australia will forever stay in Australia.

What did I learn in Australia?
I guess the biggest thing that I learned is that you create your situation. Regardless of the surrounding circumstances and the people around you, you are the most influential in making or breaking a situation. I guess mind over matter is true in a ways. Did I love the city of Sydney? Not really. I liked it a lot, but what I did love was the people I was with and the trips we took and the stupid fights we got into that made it all somehow worth it. I was talking to one of my aunts about our infamous 'nuclear saturday' when some of us let our emotions get the better of us and she summed it up perfectly. She said you were at a point that you felt like family and that you could say what you needed to say and you knew that it would be okay. That was the truth for me. I knew that regardless of the outcome of that night everything would be okay. And it was, sometimes I think it was better than okay and that we were stronger because of that night.

I learned that friends are people who know everything about you and like you anyways. Every single one of us has our flaws, but we also have amazing qualities that true friends will value more than our flaws. The most comforting thing about coming home to the states was knowing that I left Australia with some amazingly close friends. When you are forced into a situation where you are half way around the world from your closest friends and family you reach out for people. When I reached out I grabbed some keepers and I'm grateful for that.

I learned that it is more important to be yourself than to be who other people want you to be. There are enough people out there who will appreciate you for who you are, you don't need to be friends with everyone. You especially don't have to pretend to be someone you are not to make other people like you.

I learned that jetlag sucks.

Shawn

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Tonight, it hit me...

Well, we know I'm going away
And how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me
Let's delay our misery...

It ain't easy to say goodbye
Darling please don't start to cry
'Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh
And Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
And fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be gone


Tonight was a long, but much needed night for me. For the past two days I've been fighting a head cold and against my better judgment had a few drinks last night which made it even worse this morning. So I laid in bed all day drinking water, taking Emergen-C, and sleeping. Then I mustered up the energy to go to my last night of poker at the AB Hotel, because I hadn't said goodbye to Colin and Charnae and the other Glebe locals I've come to know. I had a pretty good feeling I wasn't going to do great, because I just didn't even have the energy, but I lasted until the top 15. I am now the only one of our group of regulars to not get first place at all in the poker tournaments at the AB. (I did however get first at Landsdowne and first at Ivory Lounge, so I don't feel too bad about myself) Well before I left Colin gave me a winners chip and told me to just tell the others that I won, and he asked me to come back to Sydney for his birthday on New Years Eve. I said it's a little soon and not so cheap, but I'd see.

Next stop was Friend In Hand Pub. When we first got here Babs and I went to the Fall Out Boy show. We approached some random people who had I Love NY shirts so we had someone to talk to. Well turns out they were actually Australians. Got to talking to them and they gave us some good places to go and hang out and one guy Scott invited us to go to crab racing with him at Friend in Hand. We went for a few weeks, but then got sucked into poker and never really made it back. Doug had never been and we told him you have to do it once, so I met Doug, Stacy, and Jess there after poker and caught the races which brought back a lot of great memories.

Then it was on to Sidebar. Before there was ever poker or crab racing there was Sidebar. More importantly there was Dan and Dave. About a week after we moved in to Unilodge we had a barbecue for all the new residents. The live entertainment was an acoustic duo named Dan and Dave who rocked. They played a bunch of great American covers that reminded me so much of High School proms and what not. They also played a few Aussie songs that we've come to know and love like "Wish You Well". Well after their set on the roof we all went to Sidebar "Where the World mixes". From that day on we spent about 33% of our nights in Sidebar. Specifically the nights that Dan and Dave played. Matt and Brandon got the hook up early on and were sure to share it with all of us so a good night at Sidebar rarely cost anyone more than $10. Then there were a few weeks where we travelled or went to different bars and somehow we and Sidebar grew apart. Then we had the urge. The urge to go back and hear Bob Sinclair or The Killers and we forced ourselves into going. Well one thing led to another there were comments made and beers thrown and Alex got banned for life by 'Little Randy'. But no one else did and since Alex is away...we went to Sidebar without her. (Did I mention she is slightly in love with Dave?)

Somewhere after the first three chords of Save Tonight, it hit me. This was it. This was the last night we were ever going to see Dan and Dave, this was the last night I was going to play poker with Colin, and that was the last time I was going to get squirt with a hose while watching Hermit Crabs race across a table. It was a truly bittersweet moment because here was the finale of a lot of things and some of my closest friends were missing it. On the walk back from Sidebar it was Stacy, Jess and I talked about how we had come full circle. It was the three of us that left Boston together to fly here 18 weeks ago and it was the three of us saying goodbye to all these things we loved in Sydney.

I don't ever want to feel
Like i did that day
Take me to the place i love
Take me all the way
I don't ever want to feel
Like i did that day
Take me to the place i love
Take me all the way (yeah yeah
)

The feelings I've had here in Sydney are feelings that I never want to forget. I never really want to re-live them either. It's a once in a lifetime experience and I wouldn't have changed a thing. The good times were really good and the bad time made me a stronger person (I hope). Sydney is definitely an awesome city. I don't really feel like I was able to take advantage of everything that I wanted to here. But then again 4 months isnt really all that much time to get to know a city. I've spent almost 3 years in Boston and there's a lot I haven't experienced. You get caught up in the little things, and forget sometimes to look outside of the box.

The more I feel like I'm ready to go home the scarier it is to realize that I only have three nights left. I'm reaching to hold on to everything I've experienced and remembered it all. I wish the weather was nicer so I could get a few more pictures of my favorite sites. It's been cold and rainy all week, good for them since its been a drought for decades. One city outside of Sydney recorded the most rain in June in 10 years. If it doesn't though, I have the memories. I'm pretty sure they are well engraved in my brain at this point.

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you


Dan and Dave end everyone of their sets with "With or Without You" by U2. It seems a fitting way to end one of my final blogs from Australia. To my the crew here in Sydney. You guys have been my best friends for the past 18 weeks and I can't thank you enough for that. From Sidebar to Pontoon to AB Hotel to Wedges at Landsdowne to Bob's Kebabs. From weekends in the bush on Wilson's Prom or at Star City and Crown. From Cluedo to Creeping and Cap'n to Soco we've created some awesome memories and even stronger friendships. Sometimes it's very hard to live with you all non stop;) but 100% of the time I know I could not live without you. When Sunday comes let's just remember it's not going to be "Goodbye", just a "See You Later".

OZ074L

Friday, June 22, 2007

Done

Junior year complete...one more to go...9 days til home :)

Rihanna feat Jay Z "Umbrella"
No clouds in my storms
Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank
Coming down with the Dow Jones
When the clouds come we gone, we Rocafella
She fly higher than weather
And G5's are better, You know me,
an anticipation, for precipitation. Stacked chips for the rainy day
Jay, Rain Man is back with little Ms. Sunshine
Rihanna where you at?

[Rihanna:]
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[Chorus:]
When there's sunshine, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh )

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

[Chorus:]
When there's sunshine, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh )

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

[Chorus:]
When there's sunshine, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh )

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Double Deuce

There is something about birthdays that gets me all excited. I don't know what it is. I feel like for most people over the age of 5 it's just another day, but our family has always made a big deal out of it and for the past 21 years I was with my family on my birthday. It just worked out because I'm an early summer baby that I was home or could get home on my birthday. So this year was real strange to nt be with anyone. BUT Nap and Alex and I had a fun time anyways. I told them both that if I couldn't be with my family, they were the people I wanted to be with. Nap had an exam in the morning so we didn't get the day started until 4ish and then we had a few drinks before heading over to the CASINO. The weather was crappy so the attempt to do a pub crawl were scratched and we ended up staying at the casino for a few hours. Always a good time in my book. Win or lose.

From there we went to Baja Cantina a Mexican restaurant for a late dinner. I had the chicken chimichanga which was delicious. We ate ourselves silly. I spent much of the rest of the night complaining that I was 'tuft' and getting the weirdest looks from the other two. We just ended up hanging out and playing cards for the rest of the night here. There were actually cyclone warnings and people were asked not to go outside. There is a reason I like being a summer baby. Most birthdays are spent by the pool, where as here I was in jeans and a sweater. Soon enough I'll be home in the heat again.

This past year has kind of been a big blur. For the first time in a while I spent the entire year devoted to me. I moved home for the summer for the first time since I left for college, I moved to NYC for 4 months and worked for MTV, and then I came here to Australia. I've learned alot about myself and I know I am a different person than the person I was a year ago.

The past few months here in Australia have given me a chance to examine alot of things about myself. Things I recognized or things that were pointed out to me. I've already blogged about them a million times it seems, and now I'm ready to make the next step in the process of being a better me. I'm going to make a concious effort to change the things that I now know that I don't like. That's the hardest part because old habits die hard. Sometimes it feels like I take two steps forward and then one back. This next year I want to just be constantly moving forward.

It's only 10 days now until I go home. It's going to be weird to say goodbye to everyone here. I've been putting together a slide show of pictures from the trip and its hard to describe the time I've had here. It will definitely always be a part of me.

Only one final between me and the summer and being a college senior. Wish me luck
Shawn

**Safe trip to Florida Uncle Joe. Can't wait to have a beer or two with you at the wedding**