Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Robin

Life is funny sometimes. I woke up this morning and realized that I LOVE to be the center attention. Now I always knew that I LIKED to be the center of attention, but never realized how much I love it. And I hate this about myself now. Not because it is necessarily always a bad quality. I like to be in charge and I guess control the situation which is natural. There are leaders and followers and I am definitely a leader, but I hate it because it is a quality that I hate in other people. I'm the first person to dislike someone who is an attention hog. Now I think I realize that its because they are taking the attention away from me. I'm working on this though. It isn't going to happen over night, but I will be okay playing second fiddle. I don't always have to be Batman (although I want to be), but I can be Robin every once and a while. Doesn't Robin end up with Catwoman or something?

I also never realized how paranoid I am. I have become that person who blows everything way out of proportion and think that everything is so much more dramatic than it really is. I guess you get screwed over once and you never really forget, but then again I never really knew what happened back then either so I probably am blowing that out of proportion too.

Either way this trip to Australia has continued to surprise me. I didn't know there was this much stuff about me that I didn't see before now. I am truly grateful for this opportunity and even though I'm ready to go home, I do get very sad thinking about the end. The saving grace is that the friendships will continue, no doubt.

Robin (hey at least I'm not the butler)
" We can't all be heroes because somebody has to sit on the curb and clap as they go by." - Will Rogers

3 comments:

Deanie said...

This reminds me of something Jimmy McKiernan once said "so I said to my wife, if I'm not Batman-who is?". The man kills me. Just puts it all in perspective. I mean, someone has to be Batman, why not you, Shawn?
Love and miss you!

albanymom said...

I just realized as I read this how much I miss you and our conversations. I cannot wait for you to come home. I read this site to get my fix of you and to feel like I am sitting with you have a chat. Love you so much. In our house, you can still be Batman if you want. Love you more than the world.

Tah said...

YOU ARE, AND WILL ALWAYS BE, MY SUPERHERO!!! CAN NOT WAIT FOR YOU TRIUMPHANT RETURN!! LOVE AND MISS YOU...

P.S. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE A NEW SONG I HEARD TODAY!! CAN'T WAIT TO SHARE...IT'S CALLED "HEY THERE DELILAH?" BY A BAND CALLED "PLAIN WHITE T'S"...VERY BEN FOLDS-Y...THINK YOU'LL LOVE IT, TOO. (AFTER ALL, THE BAND NAMED ITSELF AFTER ME :) ...LOVE AND MISS YA!